Posted in General Posts by Lizzie Silvia on 5/18/2012
Why me Lord, what have I ever done
To deserve even one Of the pleasures I've known Tell me Lord, what did I ever do That was worth loving you
Or the kindness you've shown.
Lord help me Jesus, I've wasted it so Help me Jesus I know what I am Now that I know that I've need you so Help me Jesus, my soul's in your hand.
Tell me Lord, if you think there's a way I can try to repay All I've taken from you Maybe Lord, I can show someone else What I've been through myself On my way back to you.
Lord help me Jesus, I've wasted it so Help me Jesus I know what I am Now that I know that I've need you so Help me Jesus, my soul's in your hand.
As I think about my life, who I am where Ive come from, what Ive been through, my ups and downs, my trials and temptations, and all my faliures this certain poem/song always comes to mind.
I have one day left now before training camp, one day left and my mind and heart are spinning, it feels great. But very much like emotional vommit. I struggle with the thought of how God can use me, why God called me why me oh why me Lord? Wouldnt you want someone better, camp is here and In a lot of ways I feel so ready but then again in some ways I dont.
I am not going into this race to come back the same.
I am wanting a life changing life style epic change!!
Im hoping that through my past and my present God can use me, the words I highlighted in bold up above are truley how I feel.
Im suppose to write this list I geuss of expections, and goals before I leave on the WR.. most of the time its easy to make a list of goals in my life, things I wanted. Once after a break up I wrote a list of 110 characteristics I wanted in a guy, from his hair and eye color to what his favorite sport and book was.
So here I sit trying to write what I want God to do what are my expectations what do I want to do and learn from this race, how I want God to miniseter to me.
...I want it ALL
If I told you I just wanted God to rock my world you would say well thats great but can you give me more details???
Well not too long ago I read this Blog By a women called "Dont sign up for the race..." this particular blog mentioned about bathing/hygiene habbits, missing modern convienency like dry clothes and connection to AAA, if you afraid of spiders etc. This list seemed to go on in on and all I could think of was "So" ...
Dont get me wrong I will miss the modern coneiencies, as well as clean bathrooms and fresh water.. But where would any of us be with out Sacrifice. In order to gain something dont you have to loose and let go of something else?
For instance I want to be beautiful, thin, strong and natural, so I wear make up to cover what I deem my flaws, would you believe how much in a way I am looking forward to having to rough it with growse showers and nasty living, muddy baths... because God is preparing me to see the inwad beauty that he already sees.
My expectations of the World Race are high, and not for the people that are on it, but high in the sense of what I expect God to do, to work.
Im tierd of being complacent, I want God to use me. To change my perspective to His perspective, to set my priorities on things he would have me dwell on. I lost a friend this year, and let me tell you that puts a whole new perspective on life in itself. That life is for the living and if you have a calling anweser it.
When I was younger I was the absolute slowest learner in my class. Everytime a new concept was brought up Id get lost or over think while my class mates seemed to catch on and understand much faster than I. Can you imaging a 10yr old praying to God to make her wise, to give her the wisdom she lacks? I am 23 yr old now and I still ask that prayer of knowledge and understanding. The point being that it might be 13 yr later but i still have the same expectaiton and goal as I did then, but its high I have much more!
3 top Goals out of my head instantly! :
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Brave/Bold/Fearless = "Be on guard. Stand firm in the faith. Be courageous. Be strong" 1 Corinth 16 vs 13
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Humble Myself = "Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up " James 4 Vs 10
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Swallowing Pride =Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall. Better to be lowly in spirit and among the oppressed than to share plunder with the proud. Proverbs 16 Vs 18-19
My main surenderence..
Giving up my own agenda to how God wants to use me. Its hard to let go of our own material things, least for me it very much is, but true happiness is never found in this world. God wants me to let go of my agenda of my life and let me trust and know and realize that happiness is found in him. Ive always loved to do things my way, best part about the race, its all about GODS way a lesson I need to practice in daily life.
This isnt just a missions trip for me, its about learning a whole knew lifestyle change.
Now that Ive poured my heart here is a breaf :
FUNDRAISING STATUS UPDATE!!!
**Funds are going great, I only have to raise 4500 more until I will be fully funded! God is great!!!
And before I end this blog I really do want to apologize for not writing much at all in here, my stresses of life and death have been over bearing these last couple months but GOD IS GOOD!! and He is working and I promise to write more and more in here!! My love to you all!! xxx
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Posted in General Posts by Lizzie Silvia on 1/7/2012
Dear Brothers and Sisters in Christ,
My name is Elizabeth Silvia. My name may sound familiar to some but unfamiliar to others. First I’d like to tell you a little bit about who I am. I am 22 yrs old, I love staying up late, eating junk f ood, scrap booking, and the colors pink and green together. In high school I studied cosmetology, then I went to college for massage therapy. I love hands on activities such as helping others and any kind of adventure. As a child I grew up in a Christian home, sometimes I loved it, other times I didn’t. Sometimes I’d try things my way again and again, searching for my happiness, my dreams, and my desires. That has been my problem from the start, I’ve always had my list of things that I wanted, that I thought I needed, but not God's.
Have you ever had everything at your fingertips and yet it felt so meaningless? What if God gave you the desires of your childhood dream and it didn’t fill that void? The void needing to be filled is God. My dream was to work on a cruise ship, to travel, make money, and meet amazing people. My dream came true, I served two contracts on Royal Caribbean and it was amazing, but like anything else it had its ups and downs. I tried living and serving both God and man, that way I could serve God to get into Heaven and yet, still live my life to have what I wanted. I found that when you look for happiness outside of God that’s when you get misery. I was making money and living my dream, but I was empty. I tried to find happiness my way through lust and self-fulfillment and I learned that you can only truly be happy when you’re happy in Christ. He gives such a joy that other things of this world can never fulfill or measure up to.
Letting God in and your dreams go is complete selflessness. God is challenging me to take a dare, to give up myself and my ways and to follow Him. Anything we do, unless it’s what God wants, is settling. There is definitely more to life than what I thought, it’s not about my will but God's and in God there is no emptiness but true happiness and fulfillment. That is why God is calling me to go on a mission’s trip, a particular one called the World Race which is a part of Adventures in Missions. On this journey I will be going to eleven countries in eleven months. These countries include Ireland, Ukraine, Russia, Kenya, Tanzania, Mozambique, India, Nepal, Cambodia, Asia, and Malaysia. In these countries I will be sharing the love of the Lord, sharing a message of hope and life, helping them in their churches as well as community outreaches such as bar ministries, assisting in orphan care, and visiting hospitals. I want God to rock my world completely in every aspect of my life, drawing me closer to Him, opening up my heart as well as my eyes. God has a divine plan and for it I’m trying to raise support for this trip.
The grand total I have to raise is $15, 500 for the year, (from July 2012 - May 2013). If I can get 100 people to pledge $12 a month for a year I will have the funds that I need. I am asking that you would prayerfully consider making a pledge to support me in this. If you feel that God has put it in your heart to support me you can make your pledge online at http://elizabethsilvia.theworldrace.org/ During my trip I will post pictures and testimonies on what God is doing, access to this site will keep you constantly updated. If you don’t have internet access you can fill out the donation form given to your pastors to fill out and mail.
May God bless you and keep you.
Elizabeth Anne Silvia
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Posted in General Posts by Lizzie Silvia on 1/7/2012
Hey!!! Check Out My Video For Support!!!!! Sending It Out With Lots Of Love And Prayers, God Will Take Care Of All My Needs, I Trust In Him Alone!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IUPb6rOpNYY
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Posted in General Posts by Lizzie Silvia on 12/18/2011
..For those of you who know me, I am shy, very qiet and I don’t really put myself out there…………..
NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hahahahaha!
Really, I’m probably one of the loudest people youll ever know! Im always involved and outgoing!
My Name is Elizabeth Anne Silvia. A little fact about me, when I was younger I spelt my middle name as the word, “And”!! hahhaha… I am 22 yease YOUNG with the heart of a child! I trust people way to easily and I always have faith for the good in people to shine through! If you’re my friend I’ll push you to be the best you can be and love and accept you for who you really are.
…….I have ONE addiction……
I LOVE to scrapbook!! I could do it morning, noon and night!!! Hobby Lobby is my favorite store! I’ve had this hobby since I was thirteen, and now I have in total fifteen books. I’d love to have a bumper sticker that says, “Scrap Booking Is My Anti-Drug” so if you find one let me know!!
I am not the slowest person but I am definitely not the fastest. I’m not hand eye coordinated with sports, flying balls always scare me (I’ve been hit one too many times). But I still love playing them for fun particularly dodge ball. One things I do hate besides Broccoli is video games!! My theory is go outside and get dirt, use some imagination!! The only one I do somewhat accept is the “WII” cause you move around and communicate with people more.
My FAVORITE Things!!!
CoLoR = Pink and Lime GREEN!!!, separate or together either way their beautiful!
FlOwEr = MISTLE TOE!!!!!!!!! More for its meaning… true Love :o)
FoOd = Spaghetti And Meatballs!!!! SOOOOO YUMMY!!!
DiSnEy mOvIe = The Little Mermaid! When I was younger I use to swim in our pool and pretend that I was a mermaid.
ScRiPtUrE vErSe = Isaiah 43 Vs 1-3. No Matter what I am His Beloved and He will be there for me.
SoNg = Come to Jesus by Chris Rice. It’s very beautiful…. :o)
SeRiEs = The Big Bang show!! My boys are the best they make me laugh and smile!!!!!
IcE cReAm = Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough!! ITS Literally SOooOOoo Sweet!! (…I must admit when I’m sad or upset I’m a comfort food eater kind of girl, and this ALWAYS makes me feel better)!!
SeAsOn = Summer!!! I love laying in the sun and having heat on my bones feel very good and healthy like a pick me up. It makes me feel fresh and awake!
HoLiDaY = Christmas and not because of the gifts or anything Christmasy... I love this time of year so much because its peaceful and people aren’t afraid to show love to each other. This time of year you can smile to a stranger and it’s not considers strange, weird or creepy but nice, warm and welcoming.
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I am simple yet still your complicated ordinary girl. My goal in life is to be truly happy… I feel like I’ve been searching for true happiness my whole life. I’m learning that god can only help me with that one. That only God will make me truly abundantly happy. God knows me better than what I know myself. He fills me and completes me and I cant wait to see what He is going to do with my life. Every day I want to be better, to kill the flesh inside of me… and it’s hard every day it’s a challenge….. To think before I speak, to not be so easily angered and to think what would Jesus do.
I am not perfect, no matter how much I try to be. I will let you down and hurt you over stupid stuff, but its never intentional. I don’t hate people but I love them. No matter how much I’m hurt or troubled I always try to find the good in the situation. I am human and I make many mistakes each and every day. But the beauty of mistakes is seeing the outcome, what God is going to do with it to glorify Him.
I am an original, I am me. There is so much more I could add and say, one post will never be enough. Besides anymore information would take away from you all getting to know me one on one, more personally.
**********May God Continue To BLESS You All And KEEP you And May ALL of YOU Have A VERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRY MERRRRRRRRRRRRRRY
CHRISTMAS!!!!
My Love To You ALL!!!
~Elizabeth Anne~
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